Loseing love

I think since I cheated on my boy friend I’m losing the love we have for each other. All the kind,nice,sweet things he done. And know I cheated on him. I wonder if he will forgive me ever. He’s sweet,kind,nice, he use his manners. I don’t know why I cheated on him. I really wish I haven’t done it in the first place. But it is hard to break up with someone. So I don’t know what I’m going to do.He is my boy friend in plant craft which is kin for like minecraft. I don’t think that I ever say him in real life before.